INSANITY ... seen as normality at so many women

Into one point it becomes obvious that controlling, manipulating and dominating ... it's actually more important as ... enjoying the experience itself ... And the question is ... why?! But ... realistically speaking ... i also dare to ask ... can we define this as a psychological issue?! Or it simply has to do with the energies beyond reality?! A representation of a sick soul or ... a sick mind?! You see ... many claims that the life itself teaches us how to act ... as human beings on the stage of life. How to react. And in general ... the mechanisms beyond our behaviour are a lot related to what we see around. As children. But ... also as adults. Being a reflection of the society itself ... even if philosophers and spiritual gurus claim that all we see is actually a reflection of the inner world. Anyway ... a vicious circle. Unfortunately ... many have to experience that ... for real. During the years i've heard many men and women complaining about being controlled, manipulated, gaslighted ... and even totally dominated mentally, emotionally and sometimes even physically ... by their partners. All looking so illogically. Real nonsense. And ... when i've been into such a story ... I've simply asked ... "Why the hell it's so important to enslave me as a spirit with lots of psychological games ... instead of enjoying our story?! Why cannot you just stop?!" Unfortunately ... the only answer was ... "What are you talking about?? Are you insane??" Maybe i was ... but deep inside myself i felt that all was related to her ... insanity. Everything being a secondary effect of the fact that ... i made this stupid mistake to be with her ... illusory hoping that i can change her. Also ... that i have the right to do it. Stupidly feeling that i am a healer ... or even a spiritual guru ... having the life purpose to ... save these sick souls. Sort of an eternal divine mission ... and ... Well ... all was in vain. Nothing changed. She could not be changed. I just illusory thought i can brainwash and make her ... think differently and act beautifully ... but ... Well ... all my efforts represented ... an impossible mission. I just had to accept it. You see ... for many lost souls .... negativity is simply more important than positivity itself. The results being ... so annoying and frustrating for me as a man ... but also as a soul. Failing. Being disappointed. Having the idea of a weird bad luck ... and that the Universe is not really loving me. But ... of course ... i was just childish. I speak about psychology, philosophy and spirituality ... and unfortunately ... into a sick world ... my perceptions are so naively. So ... the huge mistake ... which many are making is that i fell in love with the appearances of that woman. Her face. Her gorgeous body. Her exterior ... and totally ignoring her interior world. Complaining today ... it's useless. We had ... the connection. It could have been ... the most beautiful experience from my life ... but ... So ... short story ... all started perfectly ... but ended up as a disillusion. Feeling trapped. Wasting my existence near an ugly soul that was treating my obvious love for her ... as a weakness. And being treated ... as a victim. Well ... until one day ... when i had to be honest with myself ... or at least to stop lying my soul and feed it with toxicity. Again and again. In fact ... stop myself be an idiot ... or better said ... a pathetic loser. Because ... it was late. Too late.